By Roger Dean Kiser, Sr.
"Boys, this is your new home now. This is where you will live from now
on," said the tall, black haired woman who was standing in front of us
kids at the orphanage home.
"Will this be our home for ever and ever?" asked one of the orphan boys.
"This will be your home until you grow up and go out onto your own," she
"I didn't even get to tell my mommy good-bye," said the little boy, as
he slowly bowed his head and he began to cry.
"Don't nobody love us, no way. We won't never have the good feelin',
ever again." I said out loud.
"You shouldn't talk like that, Roger. You're just a little boy," said
"But that's the truth, ain't it? Don't nobody love us kids. We won't
never be able to have a mommy and daddy ever any more. Will we?" I
The room fell totally silent as we orphans looked up, waiting for her to
answer. But she never did answer. She just looked away and she said not
I was six years old when I was told that I would never again have a
mother or a father to love me. I'm not even sure that hearing those
words from her made any difference to me. But I do know this: I knew
right then and there that there would never be another hug, or a kiss
for me. I knew right then and there that there would never be a
piggyback ride or anyone to ever be proud of me.
As I sit her fifty years later I try, as best I can, to remember exactly
what it was that I felt at that very moment. But for the life of me; I
draw nothing but a total blank. A total blank must have been what I felt
at the moment that she spoke those words to us orphans.
A blank space is all that I was given to build a life upon. For years I
went to various reform schools, jails and then on to prison in 1965. I
walked out of prison on February 6th, 1969. That was the first day of my
life that I was ever free of the system. I had no where to go and I had
no where to turn. All I had was a baggy old suit, that the prison had
given me, fifty-five dollars and that blank space I had been given as a
I was sent back to Alaska where it was fifty-five below zero when I
arrived. I lived for several days in a game-room, sleeping behind the
pin ball machines. Within a week I was broke and I had nothing to eat. I
asked the state of Alaska for help but no one would help me. I begged
for food from the army soldiers who would come to town on leave. Finally
I left Alaska two weeks later with twenty dollars a man had given me.
I did as best I could to build a life with whatever I had left. Which of
course was that blank space that the orphanage had given me.
Over the next thirty years I was married and divorced six times, and I
had 4 children. I could never understand why the marriages would not
work. I was kind. I was hard working and I was faithful.
Now as I look back I can see that all I really had to share with them
was that blank space that I carried inside myself. I don't suppose that
they will ever understand that I really did give, and share with them
all that I ever truly owned. My "blank space."
Many people have asked me what it takes to be a writer. I always tell
them that what is most helpful to me is that I always start with a blank
Roger Dean Kiser, Sr.
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Roger Dean Kiser lives in Brunswick, Georgia with his wife Judy.
Roger is the author of "Orphan, a true story of Abandonment,
Abuse and Redemption", and his newest book Runaway: Life
on the Streets--"The Lessons Learned".
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Creation Q & A
Q: Did Darwin degrade women?
A: According to Charles Darwin, the central mechanism of evolution is
survival of the fittest. In this concept, inferior animals are more likely to
become extinct while the superior ones are more likely to thrive. The racism
that this idea has produced has now been both well-documented and widely
publicized. Less widely known is the fact that many evolutionists, including
Darwin, taught that women were both biologically and intellectually inferior to men.
According to Darwinian theory, women were less evolved than men, and
because of their smaller brains, they were "eternally primitive," childlike,
less spiritual, more materialistic, and "a real danger to contemporary
civilization." The supposed intelligence gap that many leading Darwinists
believed existed between human males and females was so large that
some leading Darwinists classified them as two distinct species?males
as Homo frontalis and females as Homo parietalis. The differences were
so great that Darwin was amazed "such different beings belong to the
Reasons for male superiority included the conclusion that war and
hunting pruned the weaker men, allowing only the most fit to return
home and reproduce. Women, in contrast, were not subject to these
selection pressures but were protected by men, allowing the weak to survive.
Many Darwin biographers, including Peter Brent and Evelleen Richards,
conclude that Darwin had a low opinion of women. Brent concluded,
"It would be hard to conceive of a more self-indulgent, almost
contemptuous, view of the subservience of women to men" than Darwin's attitude.
To find out more, see Darwin Taught Male Superiority at: http://www.answersingenesis.org/articles/am/v2/n1/darwin-taught-male-superiority
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